Pick yourself up.... Dust yourself off.... And go again

I always envisioned a halo like experience with my passing moments, but the reality I think will be very different with lack of control and general degradation of my body.  The one thing I do know in these passing moments and I can be sure of is that I was loved and that my two children will go on to be a reflection of me and that they know I will love them every day. Nothing ELSE matters.  I love you all. Pips x

Everyone says I look so well, so what’s the reality? Unless you’re in the house and family it’s actually quite hard to comprehend the daily struggles of movement that I have and the breathing issues. But each week there are different hurdles to overcome. Below is my treatment this week and all the tablets I have to take to keep me pain free and alive. These change every week so chemotherapy on top of that from Friday. I do have choices not to take all this but I want to maximise the time I have! 5 x radiotherapy on hip 7 x  Lanzaprazole 7 x Magnsium citrate  7 x saviour D3 7 x Hylo forte (intensive eye lubricant) 14 x Adcal tablets 14 x Fragmin blood thinning injections  1150mg Pregabalin ( nerve pain management) Steroids 56mg Haemmorhoid cream Phosphate Sandoz for liver  For me sharing this information with the kids is so important and them knowing exactly where I am up to and they are pleased I do.  We take each breath for granted until it becomes difficult to do so. It’s not possibl